1 post tagged “dolls”

Working in Kim's baby-doll war room today was more draining and crazy-making than I expected. Hours of picking beat-up and disfigured dolls and toys from a huge pile, tying wire or ribbon onto them, and tossing them back onto another pile - tedious! dusty! grotesque! Enlivened by the occasional flash of personal toy-recognition... "hey, I had this..." Interesting how some objects, like toys, seem to be much more charged with memories and associations than others. And to think that every single object here, and there must be thousands on thousands, holds somebody's memory. Multiple memories per object, per person, etc. Multiples - seeing multiples of an object here scares me a little. Like the dolls with yellow hair in the recreation area, the little-girl dolls up in Kim's room. Don't know why - in a store it's natural to have multiples of one object. But this isn't exactly a store. And not all the multiples bother me - little army-men figures, for example, are fine. Something specific about dolls, maybe.

Last night Molly told me to root myself like a tree, to move back before I move forward.